Josh Yang

🤦🏻

let’s all feel one another

こんにちは #fyp @rxchelleyu

shoutout to my minnesotans

things are going in the right direction #fyp #Love

in honor of singles inferno s4

we look cute together

a hopeless romantic

wait are we back

look what you did 🧍🏻‍♂️

im sol ❌ im dol 🪨✅

i’ll rip your pants

i’m shorry mah bruddah

hi guys, you might all know me from all different kinds of content, but the reason i have this platform and continue to post today is because of my dad. it would be wrong not to thank him. i first blew up because of him, and i thank tiktok forever for giving me the ability to create and capture special moments with him, that i then shared with all of you :) i’ve made content since i was in the 4th grade, and have always had the passion of entertaining people, and for deeper reasons i don’t need to go into, i am the way i am because of my dad. and i’m forever grateful for that. my dad passed away around half a year ago and it hasn’t gotten better obviously. i don’t think it ever will and everyday i try to learn to come to terms with that. i don’t like talking about it because i don’t want to admit it. and it feels like i live the same day over and over. i run away instead of facing it and i’ve never felt so alone in my life. over the past couple of months i’ve been getting tiktoks of people who go through the same thing, and it makes me feel like i’m not alone in this. someone on tiktok said when you lose someone like that, you won’t get over it and the more you know that and embrace it, the better off you are. he goes on to say he never wants to forget his late brother, and will hold that pain forever because he deserves it, and that’s how much he meant to him. as stupid it sounds, i thank tiktok so much for bringing these people on my fyp when i need them the most, and for people who are willingly to openly share about their experiences, because it helps, especially when i still have a hard time processing everything still. a comment says, “i will endure a lifetime of missing you, for the privelege of loving you.” and i’m okay with that. everyday i struggle with grief and to this day, i don’t have the words to express how i feel and how much my dad meant to me. i know one day i will. i know my dad would want me to keep moving forward, and my family continues to save me everyday. i have a niece, who is everything to my dad, and she is everything to me. she gives life color and meaning. i wanted to share a korean quote my dad had up: 사람이 온다는 건 실은 어마어마한 일이다 그는 그의 과거와 현재와 그의 미래와 함께 오기 때문이다 한 사람의 일생이 오기 때문이다 부서지기 쉬운 그래서 부서지기도 했을 마음이 오는 것이다-그 갈피를 아마 바람은 더듬어볼 수 있을 마음, 내 마음이 그런 바람을 흉내낸다면 필경 환대가 될 것이다 “The coming of a person is, in truth, an extraordinary event. Because they come with their past, their present, and their future. It is the arrival of an entire lifetime. A fragile heart, which may have already been broken, is what comes. Perhaps the wind can trace the outlines of that heart. If my own heart were to mimic such a wind, surely, it would become hospitality.” (direct translation) i want to thank everyone of you, all these years, for welcoming me, my dad, my family, and my friends into this community and always showing love. no matter how small, it matters, every like, every hate comment, share, anything. i love you all. my dad believed he was a celebrity, and i can thank you all for that😭 and it means so much to me how much you all loved him, even if it was long ago. not even on the creative side, this app has helped me to understand that i’m not alone in this weird life, and we’re all in it for the first time. i’ve learned so much and will forever be grateful that we all experienced so many things together. these are all just my thoughts, and an appreciation post to the man who started it all. i hope to become more vulnerable and transparent because i want to face my fears, and i also know it can help someone even one person, because i know it helped me. i know if my dad was here today he would thank you all, and he’d scold me for never showing thanks. so THANK YOU ♾️❤️